I
have now reached the super hormonal part of my pregnancy. Sure, the entire 9 months is a hormonal
roller coaster, but for me, the hormones seem to really kick in about halfway through. (See my post from last time about hormones). I don’t remember being
a super hormonal teenager – though that’s probably just because I was in it and
didn’t know any better. But with
pregnancy hormones, it’s like the entirety of puberty all condensed into 9
(relatively short) months. I
simultaneously want to cry, laugh, and scream.
The
other day Aaron and I were talking about living wills and advanced directives
(spurred by the pregnant woman who was forced to stay on life support even
though she was brain dead because the hospital thought it was mandated by law
to grow a fetus inside a corpse . . . but that’s a whole different can of
worms). Anyway, we were talking about end of life decisions, which is a very
important discussion to have, and a topic we have discussed before on many
occasions. However, this time,
mid-conversation, I immediately burst into tears. Couldn’t help it, didn’t really see it
coming, just BOOM: bawling mess of tears.
I had to tell Aaron through my sobs, “I’m sorry, but I think I’m a bit
too hormonal to have this conversation right now.” Then I got angry with myself about it because
I tend to be a very logical, rational person when it comes to topics like that.
Then
the other day, I got a work email that made me want to cry. I don’t like crying at the office. It makes me feel like a silly woman (not that
being a woman is inherently silly, but it makes me feel like there is reason
for the stereotype of the “silly woman” . . . which there is not). And this particular email was not
personal. The person wasn’t being mean
or rude at all. It was just me, taking
things way too personally, which is what pregnant hormones do apparently.
One
place I have always been emotional, however, is watching entertainment. (I’m the girl who still can’t get through
“All Dogs Go to Heaven” without a box of Kleenex nearby.) However it’s even worse now! Pretty much anytime there’s a Cheerios
commercial on TV, I have to leave the room or risk tears instantly streaming
down my face. Have you seen this
commercial?
Or
this one?
Darn you Cheerios! They get me very time I see them (just re-watching them to link them in my blog has now made me a blubbering mess)!
What’s
the toll of all this hyper-emotional sensitivity? It makes me angry that I’m
being emotional at all, which makes me want to scream and punch something. Since I can’t punch people a) because that
would get me in trouble, b) because I’m not really the punching people type
person and c) because it’s completely irrational to punch someone else when I’m the one taking things too
personally. So instead, I want to punch
my hormones. I want to punch my pregnant
hormones in the face! (That is, if they
had faces.) Ah well, I guess it will all be over in a couple months . . . then
I’ll get to deal with new mom/sleep deprivation hormones . . . Yay!
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Ug, I was never a very emotional person until I had Olivia. I thought once I wasn't pregnant I wouldn't be emotional. Even after postpartum depression was gone I still just get so emotional over every little thing. I never would have cried at those commericals before, and now I'll even cry during the frozen sound track. I have no idea why.
ReplyDeleteOh man, I was emotional before pregnancy, and it's even worse now. You're right, it doesn't seem to go away after the kid is born, either!
DeleteWell I don't actually have any kids but I do want at least two in the future. Reading this makes me feel a bit scared. For one I'm already emotional and can basically feel others emotions around me, so you can only guess my day to day life. Having a baby will apparently double that ability, but I can't complain, been going through it most of my life teehee. Thanks I like reading this, I'll definitely come by more often.
ReplyDeleteHaha, don't let the hormone thing scare you off having kids. It's a crazy rollercoaster, but it's worth it. Annoying while it's happening, but as long as you step back and see it for what it is, it can actually be pretty amusing. :)
DeleteThis is happening to me as I get older, even without pregnancy hormones! It happened to my mom too as she got older. It's bad around the holiday - we're watching football bowl games and then getting all teary during the commercials! Seriously, sad commercials should be banned...
ReplyDeleteOh, and I completely approve of punching abstract or inanimate objects in the face! I say this all the time too :)
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